[PittsburghFX]

You are trying to scramble your money around, just like an egg. You were headed for distaster before you even started.

You traded money that you cannot afford to lose. You spent thousands of dollars on a product without knowing the market you were trading in the first place.

I do not mean to beat you, but please hear me out. Stop trading and stop searching. You blew up. Accept this and move on.

If you keep chasing the dream you will end up in more misery than you ever have imagined.

Dude, I worked for FXCM and RefcoFX. I was a guy on the other end of the phone. I would talk market with you and give you my 2 cents worth. I have seens thousands of people just like you in my professional life of trading and working for brokerages.

Please just stop. Just walk away and stop trading. Do not let it eat at you as it does everyone else. I have seen people obessed with making it back so bad they resorted to unethical and illegal activities. Your wife will be happy with long term mutual funds. She is more imnportant and family is more important than making it back. Do not let this shake you forever.